Arashi in Hiatus...

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I'm still in disbelief... I am still in shock.  I cannot work right now but I have to keep a straight face even if I want to cry.

Imagine my shock yesterday when I visited the FC site out of the blue to check the balloting and their video was shown.  Since I cannot understand Japanese, tried reading the Google translated posts below the vid.  I thought Google made a mistake.  But upon checking Twitter and all my social media groups, my fear was confirmed.  Tears just poured.

Im speechless.  My 14 year old fangirl heart is broken.  I want to blame someone but I cannot.  I have to respect Riida.  If I get angry with him, I am not a true fan.  The other members didnt blame him, why will I?

I dont want to put my hopes up.  It is indefinite.  What if Riida liked what he experienced outside show business knowing that even during their initial years, he was not up to it.  He is such a gentle soul, his artistic side wants to explore.  So I should tune myself not to expect.

But until then, up to December 31, 2020, I will treasure those remaining days with my boys.  Support their group activities, keep them in my heart and memory.  I will keep on smiling till the end (and cry in the corner).  Arashi, you all did well.  Thank you for being my daily happy pills and I will forever be one of your greatest fan.

By January 1, 2021, I will be putting up a post.  Until we meet again as a group.  I will be here waiting with an open heart.  I will be supporting you individually until them.  I will always love you individually but my love for you as a group is above all.